Sometimes I wonder if I’m really that lonely. I say that I’m lonely in my dreams, when I’m drunk… It’s honestly quite nerve-wrecking. Makes me wonder what I currently lacking in my life.
Not that I’m lacking of close friends… I have quite a number which I’m really glad I do. And I do hang out with them quite often. Just that something’s still not quite right. Maybe I’m just envious of those who have found their better half. Maybe I’m not doing something that I’m really passionate about. Maybe I’ve lost all interests in life and just wanna lie in bed all day.
That being said, I’m super unmotivated to work on my thesis… I know it’s my last lap. I have less than two months left before submission. But somehow, I just can’t get myself to start working on it. It’s friggin’ frustrating. Surely I don’t wanna screw everything up and regret later on. Why is it always easier said than done?
C’mon… I can do it. I can do it. I CAN DO IT! I don’t have much time left. I gotta push myself towards my goal. Don’t give up yet. I know it’s hard, but it will be harder if I give up now.
Welps, hopefully this random rant/pep talk is enough to start my engine. Gogogogogogo!